Life..!!!

Juss thinking to type some of my emotions here, which may hurt you, I know you won't like it and the fact is even i hate it! But life sounds very faithful to me, I am happy that you love me, with all if, yes, no, buts. It has always been said that love never comes with conditions, its all about devotion and dedications, it never think of here and there its kinda state of Nirvana. But I am the (un)fortunate one to have a conditional love life. If simply say, It hurts!

Most of the times I keep crying, its not intentional, the tears keep pouring out with a heartly pain. Nor I intend to show my dramatic skills to anyone. I always try to mobilise my thoughts towards other things but end result is same. Feeling lonely in your company sounds very strange but its a fact now! You keep saying Yes I Love You, and am used to it! But the psychie plays its own game, I am always in Ifs and Buts! Thinking of my so-called lovely and lively future!

When it comes to job front, a prson's profession is always kicked by his personal life, so same here! Not in mood to do any work, Don't know why? But now it seems that I am no more alive! Working on a special story but a I only know, how much I am dedicated towards it?

I know, you will be angry with me after reading these lines but it is ASIM. I cannot stop these scary thoughts. I am afraid of life! Sorry, Can't help it! it again started pouring out, cause I am still uncertain about my love, life and the bright or dark future! And I know your replies, Yes I am hopeless! Sorry!