Life..!
Even after failing almost on all the fronts till now, I still feel "I am the Best"... May be a poet inside isn't letting me to accept the defeats... though this soul is sad, made by nature... and keeps crying for everything in life..!
Ups and downs are part of life, with these words i keep petting myself. That the sun will rise some day, nothing comes up in a sudden even sunrise takes time, light reaches earth in 8 minutes, so destiny might open its doors someday for me.
But its not just one person who is living i have a world around me... that stares at me, at my debacles... sometimes cries, sometimes laughs at me. It has expectations and hopes from me that someday i will become like it.
After receiving many jolts still am not broken though am little tired of thinking, contemplating and planning. Money brings joy, who says its not just about money... its all about money! Today am financially broken and can feel the pain..!
Some people suggests that its not the right time to run a business and then i put my theory of risk, age and responsibility in front of them. Yes, a job might provide some relief to me... But the soul inside prevents me from going ahead. It says, you are alive, still breathing, don't loose hope. And I remember Tipu Sultan's words then, "One day of lion's life is better than hundreds of jackal's".
Personal, professional, social stress has enormously increased. Am still unknown about the future. A few people are asking me to quit poetry.. dudes its not smoking that i should quit. Poetry is in my blood, i breath it, i live in it. I can die but can't live without it.
Though am almost shattered, punched by moments and is far behind in the race today but still feels I might win. After darkness comes the light... And i can sense it.. Someday the Day will be mine... In my long sentence, a small bracket has come , someday the bracket will be closed and the sentence will continue till full stop. That day the success will be only mine, because today no one is supporting to me, then why should i share my success with them... My struggle, my hard work, my failures then why not only my success... Sometimes I feel like Hitler.. Yes, its only about me!
- Khan M. Asim... 11/08/2011... 02:39 AM!